It has been a very very long time since I have posted anything and there has been a good reason for that, I have been contemplating this entry for a long long time. I am a worrier, I worry more when I believe I don't have control over a situation. So, I try my best to make sure all my ducks are aligned almost all the time. The future, for someone like me, can be riddled with anxious moments wondering about that ever present question "what if". My focus has been to get my weight down but now that it's down I feel the pressure to keep it off, to now slip up and slide back. The big questions I have running through my head are these
• Winter's coming, how will I keep up with my 1/2hr daily running and 45minute daily walking?
• If I can't keep up that kind of exercise regime what will happen to me? Will the pounds begin to pile on?
• What if I suffer and injury while running that side lines me?
• I might want another baby, the whole reason I piled on so many pounds in the first place...what will I do if another baby comes along? How will I handle my weight then?
• What if I just , plain, lose my momentum. 90% of this battle has been fought on sheer momentum. The idea of running out of steam seems only too possible. How do you keep up with the will power forever?
To be completely honest the fact that we are 10.5 months into this journey and I haven't slipped back at all seems like a miracle to me. The fact that I am 6 moths down the line and still running 4 days a week and am going to MISS running over the winter shocks and pleases me.Worriers tend to plan, it is a control thing. So I have started to try to develop some contingency plans for living life as a skinny person....Here goes:
#1: Always have a plan,a goal and a strategy for the future.
#2: Find an alternative exercise that burns as many calories as jogging but that I can do at home.
#3: Take diet breaks from time to time to give myself a mini vacation.
#4: Weigh in daily to stay accountable
#5: If we decide to have another baby keep track of my calories and try not to exceed a 25 pound weight gain.
#6: If there is a new baby in the home make it a part of the postpartum plan to be back on Weight Watchers right away and begin exercising asap. This is how the indoor exercise regime might become crucial.
#7: Throw out my fat clothes and only buy and wear clothes that fit perfectly. Fat clothes are too comfy.
#8: THINK before I eat...THINK before I eat...THINK before I eat. Why do I want that glass of wine, Why am I eating another cookie, Am I hungry? Is that pasta dish the best choice.
#9: Measure and weigh my food, what goes in must be worked off daily.
#10: Forgive myself if I do mess up and gain a bit back. Guilt is a insidious feeling. Guilt can make one do weird things like say to ones self " Screw it...I already failed."
So there we have it, I don't know what my future will bring but I do know that it will always be challenging to my diet. Aging, stresses, babies, injuries...all of it can impact and unravel the hard work I have put in to get as far as I have today. I don't know how I will cope but I do know that at least I have begun the planning stages of living life as a skinny.
• Winter's coming, how will I keep up with my 1/2hr daily running and 45minute daily walking?
• If I can't keep up that kind of exercise regime what will happen to me? Will the pounds begin to pile on?
• What if I suffer and injury while running that side lines me?
• I might want another baby, the whole reason I piled on so many pounds in the first place...what will I do if another baby comes along? How will I handle my weight then?
• What if I just , plain, lose my momentum. 90% of this battle has been fought on sheer momentum. The idea of running out of steam seems only too possible. How do you keep up with the will power forever?
To be completely honest the fact that we are 10.5 months into this journey and I haven't slipped back at all seems like a miracle to me. The fact that I am 6 moths down the line and still running 4 days a week and am going to MISS running over the winter shocks and pleases me.Worriers tend to plan, it is a control thing. So I have started to try to develop some contingency plans for living life as a skinny person....Here goes:
#1: Always have a plan,a goal and a strategy for the future.
#2: Find an alternative exercise that burns as many calories as jogging but that I can do at home.
#3: Take diet breaks from time to time to give myself a mini vacation.
#4: Weigh in daily to stay accountable
#5: If we decide to have another baby keep track of my calories and try not to exceed a 25 pound weight gain.
#6: If there is a new baby in the home make it a part of the postpartum plan to be back on Weight Watchers right away and begin exercising asap. This is how the indoor exercise regime might become crucial.
#7: Throw out my fat clothes and only buy and wear clothes that fit perfectly. Fat clothes are too comfy.
#8: THINK before I eat...THINK before I eat...THINK before I eat. Why do I want that glass of wine, Why am I eating another cookie, Am I hungry? Is that pasta dish the best choice.
#9: Measure and weigh my food, what goes in must be worked off daily.
#10: Forgive myself if I do mess up and gain a bit back. Guilt is a insidious feeling. Guilt can make one do weird things like say to ones self " Screw it...I already failed."
So there we have it, I don't know what my future will bring but I do know that it will always be challenging to my diet. Aging, stresses, babies, injuries...all of it can impact and unravel the hard work I have put in to get as far as I have today. I don't know how I will cope but I do know that at least I have begun the planning stages of living life as a skinny.
